'a' is for apple

i need to be reminded on who i am and what i am doing.
dawn is setting in and here are a few things im choosing:

to trade my brokenness for His fullness
to exchange my complacency in pursuit for so much more
to trust more, doubt less
to surrender and live with nothing to lose
to see things through His eyes not mine
to question but not demand immediate answers
to discover strength in patience
to do everything for His honour in joy tho nobody sees
to know that He has my tomorrows' in the present of today
to be smile and appreciate the people around who always have so much to teach me :) thank u guys
to wake up and know that this a daily thing. to purpose in heart, over and over again.

btw a little gila side of me: hehe secretly crept into LT2 after a long day and played my lungs out on the piano. major keys just drifts me into everything pretty, sunny golden shinny :) just had a paper in less than 24hours and will be having another in 24+hours. its 4am im still up, browsing googlebook and trying to get some stuff straight in my notes. i had steamed siew-mai and just ate a whole orange papaya while burning the midnight oil. haha this exam period is putting me into a piranah mode. chomp chomp. i feel like eating a BIG BIG chocolate cake!

surrender: its not about giving up, but giving in..
to His timing, wisdom and His love. "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understandings, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." -Phillipians 4:4-6. such a beautiful verse :)

simple and sweet

ingredients:
- 3 chicken drumsticks or any part
- 5 pieces of dried scallops
- 2 red dates (wash and drain)
- 3cups/800ml of water
- a dash of love and salt to taste

method: throw everything to boil and viola! :)

served warm on a cosy rainy day or for someone who just come back after a long hard day at work.

quiet time = chicken soup for the soul

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living: one day at a time

"being young students, i guess we are not that old to justify a full realization on -what is life all about, but i guess we are also not too young to start realising that -there is a life ahead".

hehe, im sorry for abandoning this blog for so long haha. sem4 has been so busy and i needed to place my priority as a student first. i wish i could share with u many pictures of cambodia, singapore and etc but i'll do so if i have time k.

haha firstly i want to thank God for being my God. a few weeks ago, i went for a blood test for anemia. thank u keili for going with me to the clinic :) hehe nway really praise God nothing was wrong. infact the doctor even congratulate me like a pregnant woman for having good high Hb-levels haha. altho i've been given a clean bill for health, it made me realise that i must tcare of myself. incidentally that week too, an old missionary couple visited our church. when they shared about their testimonies of struggles and trusting God together, as well as the fun adventures as husband and wife, it hit me that i must also pray for a strong healthy body and not take it for granted; as pastor daniel reminded us that we are all in for the long haul. hehe yup and besides that, i want to thank God for my family :) and the really wonderful friends that i meet in uni, cg or cf. sometimes i wonder why do i deserve all this? but it makes me really thankful and appreciate God's goodness in my life.

starting this week, there'll be a marathon of exams. our dental batch will be having 6 incourse assessment upleading to our bigEOS/2nd-BDS-professional in december which will determine our twinning uni. sometimes i do have many questions on where to go, or relationships, family, hopes and dreams or the future? but amidst that, i still hope to be faithful in the little things around as i continue to wait, pray and trust Him for him, His timing n will. hehe and in my own struggles and challenges as a woman, (honestly, it can be hard haha) but one thing that has been so vital for this soul's anchor is this: im purcase not by silver nor by gold, but by the precious blood of Jesus. God loves me. and it is this simple assurance that brings me to my knees and cling on so tightly as i face each day; sometimes with fear, tears, giggles, worry or with joy.

please pray for us the dental batch. been so stressed lately and so much to study :/ haha nway here's a picture of me with BRACES!! and my old-straight hair. haha had it curled for a change :) just thought to update u all haha. thanks for always reading and checking whether im ok. hehe cause i am! alive and well, living life one day at a time. tcare everyone :)

a godly woman is one who knows she cant make it, but only God can
- Ps. Dr Lee Choo

"You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth." - from keili's blog

Ralph Waldo Emerson

A great man is always willing to be little.

A man is usually more careful of his money than he is of his principles.

A great part of courage is the courage of having done the thing before.

If the stars should appear but one night every thousand years how man would marvel and stare.

It is not length of life, but depth of life.

Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail

Some books leave us free and some books make us free.

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. (true haha)

Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year.

Every wall is a door.

For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.

God enters by a private door into every individual.

Earth laughs in flowers :)

I hate quatotations. tell me what you know. (haha)

hehe i think his works are brilliant! and yummy food are never meant to be eaten alone. haha you'll enjoy it even more when there's someone to share it with :) mayb thats what with this beautiful thing called life too?

All i have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all i have not seen
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

slow pot cooker

today was a rough day.

lab was frustrating. i really dont know why i tried so many times but still just not geting the results. really demoralises me. sigh. and in the whole race against time to complete my projects, sometimes i feel so tempted to chin-chai-chin-chai finish. but i know, that is not the way to go about it. and yea spent some time re-mounting the teeth again (like for the 3rd time sigh) to get a good alignment, so that i can drill my class 111 cavity properly with contact point. due to that, i ended up not acomplishing much today. sigh cant wait to just get done and be over with everything. but for every cavity, i really hope to do it properly. and yea sometimes after long hours in the lab and my tired tiny shoulders drop, i really ask myself again. what if this phantom-head is someone i love and care for? will i not try my best? will i not learn and practice properly for them?

sometimes i just wish someone will tell me that it's worth it. doing what is right and staying true in this pursuit for godliness. sigh

things have not been going easy for my dental batch lately. haha i really feel like a slow-pot-cooker under all the pressure. but admist it all, i hope the potatoes, mushrooms, garlic, beef, pepper, onions and salt will make a lovely good stew :) yumm.

stew and stewardship

where are you in this journey?

Psalm 63 by King David

O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirts for you, my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

I have seen you in the santuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
My soul will be satisfied as with the
richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.
Because you are my help,
I will sing in the shadow of your wings.
My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

They who seek my life will be destroyed;
they will go down to the depths of the earth.
They will be given over to the sword
and become food for jackals.

But the king will rejoice in God;
all who swear by God's name will praise him,
while the mouths of liars will be silenced.

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Six prophetic calls for this generation
1) to recover authentic spirituality
2) to be WORD essential Christians
3) to live under the Lordship of Christ
4) to live out our missionary identity in urgency
5) to breakdown the walls prejudice to our 'majority' neighbours
6) to intentionally engage in society

gegaran kini-by FES

hi :) the HUNGRY gal is back!! haha i dont know what happened, but i suddenly got back my appetite after camp. (previously had trouble eating since braces haha) its kind of an up-and-down thing. a vicious cycle haha. btw, its great to be in this phase again haha where everything is yummmay! huhu haha. another funny thing was that, i kept kentut-ing during camp! lol it was quite a loud and cute 'pruuut' till natasha and keili turn to look at me haha. really funny! its those kentut without smell. (contrary to kentut type2 which has no sound but got smell haha) you should see us laughing haha. ok enough of digressing haha. btw there's type3 kentut too. the one which you try to hold and results in a 'high-pitch-pruut' hehe.

we are back in school after camp. today keili and me did a short presentation for diabetic mellitus. altho we identified areas to improve after feedback, we truly enjoyed the whole project :) hehe. things are still busy in dentistry but i hope to take it one step at a time. which includes other commitments. i really hope to enjoy learning, serving and loving people. i dont want to be caught up doing so many things-trying to prove myself and end up running on empty. as what my sister sarah reminded me: its not bout the doing but rather the being :) "think big, start small"-mentoring paradigm, edmund chan. yup and be faithful in the little things that God has placed for me now :) sigh hehe my journal is coming to its last few pages now, which makes me nostalgic reading some old prayers and entries. but yea maybe its time to get a NEW journal yey! and write some more tho its not even end of the year yet haha. been reading and learning slowly from the character of Ruth lately. i think there's a quiet inner strength in her, as well as a strong will to stay put to what she believes in. and as she gently asks Boaz to spread the corner of his garment (ruth 3:9), its like asking Boaz to spread his wings over her. (ruth 2:12) likewise we can also ask God to spread His strong arms around us and under it we come to take refuge -ODJ. it reminded me today that i dont need to constantly be fighting or struggling, but sometimes just come humbly and rest in this love for me :') thank You Jesus.

home is where the heart is. i really miss my family.


trees in the park nearby :)

You will be my God, and I will be your people. -Ruth

fried mars bars

can you lay your life down, so a stranger may live
can you take what you need, but take less than you give

could you close everyday, without the glory and fame
could you hold your head high, when no one knows your name
thats how legends are made, at least thats what they say

we say goodbye, but never let go
we live, we die, cause you cant save every soul
you gotta take every chance to show that you're the kinda man who
will never look back will never look down
and never let go

can you lose everything you ever planned
can you sit down again, and play another hand

could you risk everything for the chance of being alone
under pressure find the grace, would you come undone
thats how legends are made, at least thats what they say

never look back, never look down, and never let go...

bryan adams, never let go.

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there's so much i want to say, but i dont know what to say. so much in this little mind and heart that beats so fast. like the flutter of a butterfly's wings. but not really knowing what it all means.. 'we dont know what the future holds, but we do know Who holds our future'. many quiet prayers behind close doors and a daily need for focus, surrender and trust. Anyway haha, sigh im currently very stressed. sem4 dentistry hasnt been easy and chomps me up like a piece of meat. but whenever i feel like crashing down, i try remember what a brother shared with me "whatever the seasons, know that He is good. He is in control. and He will bring it to pass." it lifts me up abit and to press on with a smile. please pray for me. and i also want to thank my friends for always being there. thanks :)

btw something very very important: Happy Birthday Serene! :) i love u

our identity: Who we are is on Whose we are
(page 22-IDMC notes)

the way we see things

gila = giggling in love always :)

fly because you can

sigh. there's just this part in me that feels so scared and wants to cry. so many worries and fear. going to a far place. without a leader and instead being one. to do things that im really not use to and beyond my capacity. responsibilities and care. but yea, maybe its time to learn too :) and be faithful in the little things He places for me in this season and time. hehe just got an sms from keili too. she says "chin nam says if anything, can always pray to God" hehe. as much i really feel small and not much to offer, i know i can always depend and trust Him. not by might, nor power but in the Spirit of the Lord.

lol finished packing and half of the luggage is stuff for the children haha :p hope everything will go fine tomorrow. also want thank su and peisan for helping me in some stuff. hehe they are like my right hand and i will not go far without them. hehe just like devotion today. which reminded me that, we always need one another. its never a one man show. david had his close vice, jonathan and could go on strong. unike samson who was an island and fell into delilah's trap. i thank God for people around, that always encourage and pray for me. esp my family hehe. i also thank God for boon, emmy, amy, su and peisan :) really hope our team will have a safe journey to cambodia tomorrow and have a nice time there too.

nway here's an early happy birthday to my sister sarah :) haha hope u'll hv a good time with serene and everyone else in oz. really miss two. nway uploaded many new songs in the playlist to share. tcare k everyone :) hehe. happy birthday tp paige too!

hehe and to a friend who will be competing in a competition around this week i think. all the best haha. fly fly fly. Fly because u can.


All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before You, O Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaim
The joy and the pain
I'm making them Yours

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that have yet to come true
All of my hopes, all of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

this is my desire, this is my cry.

sweet sweet smiles

little kids running playfully, giggling shyly, cute small girls that let me pony-tail their hair, their clear eyes that mirrors so many stories untold, and shampoo :) ohw how the smells of yesterdays is replaced with the fragrance of freshness and simple joys. hehe can i cut ur nails? along with a song maybe? its my bonus for u kiddo ;) haha i cant believe that im going back to the land of sweet-sweet-smiles :)

surprise surprise: hehe after contemplating for about a year plus, i finally got *this*!!! hehe make me a bit shy to smile, but i'll still want to do it. haha cause a smile can always brighten up someone else's day. and even if its just for a few seconds, its worth it :) yup and so, im still in my first week at it. cant eat properly and lost abit of weight. haha anyone has any tips on hygiene or do's-and-dont's? can share? hehe btw, *this* was actually braces :D

sometimes its so hard, but to think less of myself and more of others :'(

eupui, what song would u like? in Christ alone, i place my trust. and find my glory in the power of the cross. in every victory, let it be said of me.. my source of strength, my source of hope, is in Christ alone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jnSF5ayaWGo
if today was your last day, what would u say?

to kill a mockingbird

jem? guess we'll never know till we try
a MUST-MUST-read book! :D

all man are made equal- Thomas Jefferson