just a thought..

u know, when i see my eldest sister just graduate with honours to become a doctor and my younger sister also passing her first year of law with distinction.. i feel tongue-tied.

because we are really just a very simple family from labuan, an island so small that u cannot even see on the world map haha or have to squint your eyes to find it on peta-malaysia.. and when i look back and see how God has been leading and still is.. each of us individually, the three Ong-daugthers.. to where we are in our lives.. i am very thankful..but it also baffles me on who this God really is..my God who is really so dear as friend and Father, but at the same time so immesurable and Whose ways no one can fantom..i am really just so small and He is BIG. very BiG.

on a second note, my mum also just told me how my kakak actually wanted to be a pharmacist when she was young..but had no money to further her education (btw she is very smart)..and that is why she is saving her money so that she can send her future kids to school next time..doesnt it trigger a ponder for our peers that live in other countries? and also make us realize how blessed we actually are? and, tho my kakak is really like a part of the family..sometimes i also wonder if its like having two worlds in a home and how does she feel sometimes? what are the thoughts that travel beyond those beautiful brown eyes.. but yup i also really hope that we can be a blessing into her life during her stay here.. as much as she has been into ours :)

hehe anyway this is a lil christmas present from my friend that came in very early haha. thanks paige for the drawing :)
merry christmas everybody!



the finite and the Infinite..

grace

"Grace" is her name. the lady behind the counter :)

i read to gain wisdom. i write for clarity.
i so very need to keep humble. its the only way to learn.

"guess ur house's library is quiet full now?" she winked.
haha yea maybe but never too full.. if there's two things my family spend most is on eating-FOOD and reading-FOOD :) wished i read a book earlier to protect me from some mistakes. but its ok, it's a lesson for me.
i am still learning.

ps: reading-FOOD as in books, education, etc haha. yea diff kinds of food. one for the physical, another for spiritual. both for growth :) hehe

walks of life

whee hehe. it was good. letting my hair down for a moment. and just walk walk walk :)

probably one of the last few green patches left

hehe look closely, he did a jig for me! :D so nice rite. hehe he was trying to hide in the pic above. one of my favourite shop to pass-by. always full of colours and bursting vibrancy!

an old man searching for gifts. for his children or grandchildren mayb :)

grabbing a munch.. the simple pleasures :)

a fussion: modern art upon a mural-3decades old. (pudu's visual artifacts)

to see a rich people, poor people, addicts without homes, doctors working to help.. a mother walking hand in hand with her little girl :) a dad making powder-milk for his baby in the lrt.. young boys starting to smoke, blind beggars.. finding a shop to repair my badminton string, malls ushering into christmas with their pretty little decorations :) scouting for good eateries for the ONGs when they all come haha.. different sights and sounds, music of every blend and genre :) set my feet to tapping haha, the gentle breeze of the cool wind..

the smell of rain puddles, the smell of fresh air :)

tickle your funny bone

:) finished 6 tests n now 2 weeks of study break before EOS.



something for all my dental friends :)
OHI = Oral Hygiene Instruction

if there's one thing im learning most from dentistry rite now is this - perseverance

beyond these distant shores

Be joyful always, pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18.

just had the girls over at my place to practice osce. haha in so many ways i really appreciate n treasure the time with them. thanks su, keili, jun, paige n shafinah :) babinski's test sounds like babi-skin haha. to check for upper motor neuron lession, UMNL.

to someone, who has been sending me little titbits of food, buying me fruits, sms-ing me everyday with encouraging words and prayers, always believing in me, waking up to cover me with blanket and off-ing my study light, warm dinners after uni and all the cute yet meaningful moments.. hehe u are my sunshine too mum :)

"Keep your face to the sun and you will never see the shadows."
- Helen Keller

like lilies in the field

sigh i dont know why i cannot stop crying as i am studying now through out the night. all i just know is that God loves me. and i love my God and family very much.. stop crying. so painful

see how the lilies of the field grow. they do labor or spin. yet not even king solomon in all his splendor was dressed like these. look at the birds of the air, they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. are you not more valuable than they? therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. each day has enough trouble of its own.. but seek first the kingdom of heaven and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added on to you..

"it is often said that people dont see the struggles that you go through. but, they will see the maturity that comes from it". and behind the facade of our everyday brief hello-goodbye is actually- a someone. a real someone living a real life. and we will only know this when we take time know the people around us a little deeper. you'll be surprised too sometimes, to find out how strong or deep some people actually are on the inside. and its also only when trying realities beset, that we discover who we are and what we truly made out of. here's a tag that i read with keili some time ago: "u dont know how strong you are, till being strong is the only choice to be" thank u :) to sisters and my wonderful tooth-fairy girls too whom i hang out like almost 24/7-class/lab/clinic/csu haha for sharing and letting me learn from each of you.. many a times, we only appreciate a tree for what we see- the flowers on her branches, the sweet fruits, the patterns of the leaves, her huge cooling canopy of shade.. but lets also be reminded that beneath the surface, is the value of her roots, in which sinks deeper and hold fast into the soil for we call strength and stability. and another view worth the ponder, is that this beautiful tree.. started all from just a simple cute small humble mustard seed :) rough patches or struggles may sometimes force us to build up walls of defence. but no matter what, may we still ask for this:
a heart of flesh. one that is genuine and pure. always loving and laughing through it all.. hehe yup this is what i desire more than shoes? clothes? etc etc? thats secondary, tertiary or i dont know what haha. dont get me wrong. it is important for girls to take care of ourselves, dress up properly, be beautiful, shopping haha.. yes, but im just saying that there somethings more important on my list.

btw just a note. haha i know its super late. but october was breast cancer month :) i dont really know how to create awarness haha but yea mayb to just say this: appreciate the people around u. you dont need a hurricance or tsunami to make u realise how important or special some people are in your life :) but yea pls go for some regular check up too ya parents.

God is within her, she will not fail; God will help her at break of day.
-psalm 46. pls help me Lord in my studies and so many other areas in life. TQ

'a' is for apple

i need to be reminded on who i am and what i am doing.
dawn is setting in and here are a few things im choosing:

to trade my brokenness for His fullness
to exchange my complacency in pursuit for so much more
to trust more, doubt less
to surrender and live with nothing to lose
to see things through His eyes not mine
to question but not demand immediate answers
to discover strength in patience
to do everything for His honour in joy tho nobody sees
to know that He has my tomorrows' in the present of today
to be smile and appreciate the people around who always have so much to teach me :) thank u guys
to wake up and know that this a daily thing. to purpose in heart, over and over again.

btw a little gila side of me: hehe secretly crept into LT2 after a long day and played my lungs out on the piano. major keys just drifts me into everything pretty, sunny golden shinny :) just had a paper in less than 24hours and will be having another in 24+hours. its 4am im still up, browsing googlebook and trying to get some stuff straight in my notes. i had steamed siew-mai and just ate a whole orange papaya while burning the midnight oil. haha this exam period is putting me into a piranah mode. chomp chomp. i feel like eating a BIG BIG chocolate cake!

surrender: its not about giving up, but giving in..
to His timing, wisdom and His love. "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understandings, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." -Phillipians 4:4-6. such a beautiful verse :)

simple and sweet

ingredients:
- 3 chicken drumsticks or any part
- 5 pieces of dried scallops
- 2 red dates (wash and drain)
- 3cups/800ml of water
- a dash of love and salt to taste

method: throw everything to boil and viola! :)

served warm on a cosy rainy day or for someone who just come back after a long hard day at work.

quiet time = chicken soup for the soul

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living: one day at a time

"being young students, i guess we are not that old to justify a full realization on -what is life all about, but i guess we are also not too young to start realising that -there is a life ahead".

hehe, im sorry for abandoning this blog for so long haha. sem4 has been so busy and i needed to place my priority as a student first. i wish i could share with u many pictures of cambodia, singapore and etc but i'll do so if i have time k.

haha firstly i want to thank God for being my God. a few weeks ago, i went for a blood test for anemia. thank u keili for going with me to the clinic :) hehe nway really praise God nothing was wrong. infact the doctor even congratulate me like a pregnant woman for having good high Hb-levels haha. altho i've been given a clean bill for health, it made me realise that i must tcare of myself. incidentally that week too, an old missionary couple visited our church. when they shared about their testimonies of struggles and trusting God together, as well as the fun adventures as husband and wife, it hit me that i must also pray for a strong healthy body and not take it for granted; as pastor daniel reminded us that we are all in for the long haul. hehe yup and besides that, i want to thank God for my family :) and the really wonderful friends that i meet in uni, cg or cf. sometimes i wonder why do i deserve all this? but it makes me really thankful and appreciate God's goodness in my life.

starting this week, there'll be a marathon of exams. our dental batch will be having 6 incourse assessment upleading to our bigEOS/2nd-BDS-professional in december which will determine our twinning uni. sometimes i do have many questions on where to go, or relationships, family, hopes and dreams or the future? but amidst that, i still hope to be faithful in the little things around as i continue to wait, pray and trust Him for him, His timing n will. hehe and in my own struggles and challenges as a woman, (honestly, it can be hard haha) but one thing that has been so vital for this soul's anchor is this: im purcase not by silver nor by gold, but by the precious blood of Jesus. God loves me. and it is this simple assurance that brings me to my knees and cling on so tightly as i face each day; sometimes with fear, tears, giggles, worry or with joy.

please pray for us the dental batch. been so stressed lately and so much to study :/ haha nway here's a picture of me with BRACES!! and my old-straight hair. haha had it curled for a change :) just thought to update u all haha. thanks for always reading and checking whether im ok. hehe cause i am! alive and well, living life one day at a time. tcare everyone :)

a godly woman is one who knows she cant make it, but only God can
- Ps. Dr Lee Choo

"You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth." - from keili's blog

Ralph Waldo Emerson

A great man is always willing to be little.

A man is usually more careful of his money than he is of his principles.

A great part of courage is the courage of having done the thing before.

If the stars should appear but one night every thousand years how man would marvel and stare.

It is not length of life, but depth of life.

Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail

Some books leave us free and some books make us free.

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. (true haha)

Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year.

Every wall is a door.

For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.

God enters by a private door into every individual.

Earth laughs in flowers :)

I hate quatotations. tell me what you know. (haha)

hehe i think his works are brilliant! and yummy food are never meant to be eaten alone. haha you'll enjoy it even more when there's someone to share it with :) mayb thats what with this beautiful thing called life too?

All i have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all i have not seen
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

slow pot cooker

today was a rough day.

lab was frustrating. i really dont know why i tried so many times but still just not geting the results. really demoralises me. sigh. and in the whole race against time to complete my projects, sometimes i feel so tempted to chin-chai-chin-chai finish. but i know, that is not the way to go about it. and yea spent some time re-mounting the teeth again (like for the 3rd time sigh) to get a good alignment, so that i can drill my class 111 cavity properly with contact point. due to that, i ended up not acomplishing much today. sigh cant wait to just get done and be over with everything. but for every cavity, i really hope to do it properly. and yea sometimes after long hours in the lab and my tired tiny shoulders drop, i really ask myself again. what if this phantom-head is someone i love and care for? will i not try my best? will i not learn and practice properly for them?

sometimes i just wish someone will tell me that it's worth it. doing what is right and staying true in this pursuit for godliness. sigh

things have not been going easy for my dental batch lately. haha i really feel like a slow-pot-cooker under all the pressure. but admist it all, i hope the potatoes, mushrooms, garlic, beef, pepper, onions and salt will make a lovely good stew :) yumm.

stew and stewardship